It went by too soon!

I have to admit .. These past few weeks have been some of the best 2 weeks that I have had In a really long time! My days were filled with hilarity, random adventures, pure laziness, other times having to much energy, beautiful places, relaxation, enjoyment, and just contentment. I'd be lying if I said I didn't wish all my days were this great and that I got to have Phillip around all the time , , but it's these simple moments I get that make me realize how much I enjoy just being able to be with the person I love even if it's only for a little while

Phil was home for his last 2 weeks before he deploys... Really soon ( I can't tell you all exactly when the day is but it's too soon for my comfort) we got to spend every day together and tried to fill it up with a's much stuff as we could. I felt as though I was trying to think of everything I might want to do in a year and then manage to squeeze it all into a spam of 2 weeks. We did a lot of things, we went a lot of places( like we managed to drive at leaste 1,000 miles in 2 weeks) but out of all the things we did and all the places we went my favorite thing about these days I've had was just when we did nothing but sit and hang out. Talking and laughing about nothing and just enjoying being with eachother. I think when you are used to having someone around all the time you kinda start forgetting all those little things about the other person that you love. Like the way they smell, the way it feels to have your hand held, and the look in their eyes when they are so tired and want to go to sleep but don't want to leave because it's far too much fun hanging out! I miss those things when he isn't around, and I've learned to appreciate the simple things that I could so easily take for granted if he was around all the time .
Ive seen how blessed I am to be with someone who lovEs me for me and I don't feel once ounce of needing to be someone I am not! I love being able to talk about everything and anything without feeling fear of rejection. I think the fact that we were best friends before hand really helps. When someone has seen you for the past 5 years at your best and your worst ... You feel no pressure In being anything other than yourself. I love that.
We stayed up late talking about the future and this deployment many nights and its really hard. Too difficult at times to think about and I just push it in the back of my memory and only think about it at times when I really have to. But this weekend it was thrown into my face knowin that this was the last time for a really long time that I would get to enjoy all of this, and knowing how hard deployment was last time we did it is just kind of overwhelming. We did this a year ago and that Was difficult so I can only imagine how hard this next year is going to be. This is our last one... Thank goodness! I just want this year to fly by really fast! I think we both do!
I'm trying to find the positives in all of this , for I know it's no suprise to the lord that this is the situation we are in. I know he has us going through this and I know that I can trust him trough every step. It's just hard sometimes to see the finish line, but I know that the lord can and he knows what's best ! I know that the lord is going to do a work in us and our relationship in this coming yEar and I just ask that you would be praying for us! It is going to be rough for a while for the both of us and I know we could both use some encouragement!
I plan to put some pics up shortly of our trips and tell some good stories... One involving an almost bear attack... Haha some good stuff!
HopE you havE a great week! Don't forget to smile!