3 months down

It has officially been 3 months now since i watched that bus drive away, 3 months since that day when i cried like a large baby as I said goodbye not wanting to at all, and 3 months since I actually had a face to face conversation with my most favorite person ever. Wow. Some days feel like they go by really fast, and it seems crazy that we've already spent like 90 days apart. Other days feel like we should already be at the 12 month mark , and the fact that i've only managed to get pass 3 seems kinda overwhelming. tonight as im laying here unable to sleep, im somewhere inbetween the both of those two feelings.
January can't seem to come fast enough in my mind! that's when those oh so wonderful 2 weeks of awesomeness come, and phil Gets to come home for a little R&R. I really can't wait for it. we have some mighty fine plans in the works, and i can't wait for them to come to fruition. one of our many plans includes Roadtripping it up to Portland to stay with some of my family and to explore the city! everyone keeps ranting and raving about it so we are pretty excited about it! At first the 10.5 hour drive seemed a little daunting and ridiculous to try and knock out , but then after thinking about it my gloom turned to pure joy thinking how awesome is it that i will get to just sit and talk to that person i have been DYING just to be next to , for 10.5 hours. Im pretty sure we have a lot of catching up to do , so a nice long car drive is an excellent way to get that time in! not to mention all the fun we will have once we actually get to Portland.
I remember when phillip went to Iraq, 2 years ago, our relationship was just starting out and i had no idea what i was getting myself into. I knew hardly anything about the military, and deployments were only things i heard about on Tv, or by word of mouth. nothing i had experienced. I Remember a conversation on the phone we had while he was in Iraq where i said " 8 months....no big deal". thinking in my head ....this is gonna be a cake walk, i mean we both have 2 seperate lives, and its just gonna go by so fast as we both are doing our daily things, and keeping busy...and you will be home before we even know it. I laugh about it now because i soon learned how wrong i was!
I sit here 2 years later thinking "3 months, thats a BIG deal" . a big deal in the sense that i feel accomplished for making it thus far...and that we are that much closer to the finish line. Not that i didnt think that i would "make it" but the fact that i have made it thus far with my joy still intact, a happiness in my step, and im more in love with this one guy than i was those 3 months ago!
this whole thing is really hard, but i wouldn't trade these past few months. there's been a lot of growth, and learning, and happiness! ....although i do hope january rolls around here soon :) but as for now its 3 months down..and thats a big deal